Sunday, November 27, 2011

Has it really been 5 months already?

The title says it all!  Today marks 5 months since Grace and Wyatt joined our family.  The time has sure flown by, but our new little family is doing really well and we have adjusted to everything.  I cannot believe how big they are getting either, and all the fun changes which have taken place.

They are both all smile, and laughing.  I love that now when Brian and I come into the room they smile and get excited to see us.  They are jabbering like crazy, so much to say.  Grace is so quiet and mellow when she gurgles out her cute little noises, but Wyatt has found he can get louder and louder and louder so where he once was cute noises he now is pretty much yelling! :)  Which is still cute, of course.

Grace is rolling over and anxious to explore, her favorite toy is her stuffed yellow cow that has rattles in it;s hand, and crunchy ears.  She has learned how to shake it to make it make noise.  And she can even put  her nuk nuk in her mouth by herself.  She's such a smart little thing! :)

Wyatt is kind of a couch potato, but he is starting to attempt rolling over.  We think it's because he sees his sister doing that and wants to do so as well.  He likes music and bright colors, and has a nasty TV habit, we are breaking.  He has, like his sister, the cutest smile ever.

We started daycare a couple weeks ago, just part time, and the ladies tell us they fight over who gets to watch them because they are so good and the cutest babies in the place.  Of course I agree they are.  Wyatt and Grace have a great schedule, they eat and nap at the same time every single day, and don't kill us, but they have been sleeping through the night since end of September!  They go to bed after a little cuddle time at 7:30/8:00 and sleep until 7 in the morning!!  Needless to say their daddies have adjusted n icely to getting back to normal sleep patterns!  (Although the 7am is tough for Brian, he is not a morning person.)

We're trying to get a part time nanny now to come into the house, just to make things easier, unless the daycare at my work we've been using allowed for part time, then we'd just stay there.  It's good to have interaction with the other kids, and to build an immunie system.  They both have already survived their first colds.  And so did we, not too bad, just a lot of boogers. :)

Other than that, we have enjoyed our fist major holidays, Halloween and Thanksgiving, and we LOVED every moment of it.  Wyatt really was excited at Halloween, and Grace slept through most of it, but Thanksgiving was truly special with much to be thankful for this year.  It was also fun to remember back to last year on Thanksgiving morning when we found out we were pregnant!  Hard to believe it has already been a year since we found out we were pregnant, and now it's been five months since our family was started!

We have our Christmas cards ready to be sent, and I have waited so LONG to send a card with our family on it, and this year we will, and every year after.  I have always looked a the other cards we have gotten and been sad we could not have one with our kids, but at long last we get to share in that excitement.  I loved having Holiday photos taken of our family, and I know everyone is anxious to see them.

So, for now that's that.  We move on with our family and our precious miracles, Wyatt and Grace. (Grace who incidentally Brian just brought in to my office and gave me the biggest and cutest smile ever, I love my little Princess!!, she definitely has me wrapped around her tiny pinky and will forever)

I'll be back, and try to get more regular updates for my loyal followers.  Six months is right around the corner, and so is Christmas!!!


Thursday, October 20, 2011

Stay Tuned, the 4 month update is just around the corner!! :)

Wyatt & grace will be 4 months old on October 27th, so I will have a lengthy update then!!

Peace, and HUGE CONGRATS to 'K' on the birth of her little surro baby boy!!! :)


Monday, August 15, 2011

Wyatt & Grace are 7 weeks old today!

So I have been missing in action lately, but let me tell you with Wyatt & Grace around your downtime and alone time pretty much doesn't exist any longer.  I am not complaining, I love them more than anything in the whole world, even when they decide to scream for no apparent reason at the same time for over an hour and I want to put them out on the front porch! :) (Which I would never do)

Being a parent is still so surreal, and 2 weeks ago I was telling everyone that each day gets easier, but then all of a sudden they have become so fussy and cranky.  They both fight sleep to stay awake, like they will miss something if they close their eyes.  They are very content when being held, but that can't happen all the time.  I keep telling Brian that because they needed the love and attention, the cuddling, as they were premies we have created two little monsters who are only content when being held.  Of course I could hold them all day everyday, but that is so not realistic!

They are growing like crazy, and we have our 2 month appointment on September 1st, which was the soonest we could get an appointment.  Wyatt is growing out of his clothes so fast it's not even real to us, and our little Grace has grown a whole 3+ inches in 7 weeks.  They are getting chubby, and are still the cutest babies in the world. :)

Brian and I are pretty good about giving each other a break, getting out of the house to do whatever for a few hours, of course as I won't be getting paid until October 15th I find it difficult to go anywhere.  But having no money certainly opens your eyes to just what you DON'T need!  I really haven't felt deprieved, so all that crap I was buying, not necessary!
We just need to find a time to go out alone together now!  We have my parents lined up for August 25th, so we can go to a neighborhood party without the kids.  That will be our first night out together, and the first night Grandpa and Grandma have them!  Fun!

Our surrogate continues to recover after the issues during delivery.  We've sent off for all the medical records as we think a few things should have been done different, and have been advised to obtain records of appointments.  Sadly, our situation could have been prevented, and we're going to follow through with a potential course of action.  I am just thankful Wyatt & Grace are here, and that our surrogate is getting better and better each and everyday.

I'm off for now, I'll try to pop back again soon!!

To those who have lost a baby recently our hearts go out.  To those who have found they are pregnant we wish you the best of luck.  And to my friend 'K' who is on bedrest, Brave Heart!!  You will survive and that little baby will be here safe and sound in 10 weeks or so!!  :)

Thursday, June 30, 2011

Grace & Wyatt have joined our family

I'm using a portable device so this will be short, with more to come!

At 34 weeks 2 days Grace and Wyatt decided it was time to join us, with a little help from an old pregnancy enemy, PreEclampsia!

With her feet swollen, our surro called the nurse line and was quickly headed o the hospital, at just before midnight she gave us a call and said to head up because they were going to break her water. Brian and I were on the road 10 minutes later and arrived at the hospital just before 2a.m. As things progressed the water was broken, her blood pressure was not stabilizing and now we were getting into a risky area. Wyatt was head down, Grace was beach, so the epidural was put in and we went from 5 cm dilated to 10 in a matter of minutes.

In the OR two pushes later Wyatt Rhys came screaming into the world at 5 pounds 3 ounces looking dirty but otherwise perfect! 11 minutes later, after som maneuvering into a head down position, which was scary as hell, little Grace Violet came screaming in even louder than her brother at 4 pounds 4 ounces, and just as perfect as her brother. They were both exactly 17 inches long.

Our surro did great, but sadly suffered from the high blood pressure, went into shock and got toxemia. Her brain swelled and she lost her vision, which saddened the event, but I am extremely happy to report as of today she is on the mend! Her blood pressure is lowering, her color and strength are returning, and she is able to see with some blur for a good distance. She is expected to make a full recovery! Thank the good Lord above!

We are in the NICU but things seem to be going well, they said plan 2 weeks, give or take, so again we look one day at a time, and celebrate all the successes of Wyatt and Grace! They can breathe all on their own, Wyatt was already taken off his IV, Grace should be tomorrow, and they are chugging down their formula increasing right on schedule. Grace is having some issues with her bottle, a little slow, but she's getting there!

We have so much to be thankful for, I don't know how I can ever thank the Lord or our surro enough! It hardly seems real to me yet to see them and hold them, they are really here! I never imagined being able to love this much, but my two little miracles have been burned into my heart, and I love them more than anyone will ever know!

More to come, including pictures! Once I figure out how! :).

Brave heart, and God bless and be with all you special women out there who are so giving so that people like Brian and I can be parents and a family!!

Bravest of hearts!

Monday, June 20, 2011

33 Week appointment update!

Here we are 33 weeks and 2 days along.  Our appointment today was the usual, urine, weight, blood pressure, heartbeats, cervix discussion.  :)  All is well.

Our surro's blood pressure has gone up a bit, but not enough to cause our OB any kind of alarm.  Everything remains otherwise as it were last week, and we just wait now. 

Monday is our next appointment, the last one we currently have scheduled, and we'll be having an ultrasound to check if W&G are both still head down.  We know W is cause the OB can feel his little head in there!  After today we all laughed and said we'll probably go full term all the way to Week 38. LOL.

So, we wait, and wait.  Brian and I went on a spending spreee this weekend and bought everything else we need for W&G, it was fun, but man some things cost a fortune!  We brought everything home, and unpacked, we are confident we have everything we could possibly need now.  :)

Father's day was good.  We had everyone over to our house, and we got Father's Day cards, but it was kind of weird, I don't feel like a father yet.  I know they are coming, but hard to believe in a few weeks we will be dads! Wow.

I bit the bullet and joined Weight Watchers, AGAIN, but it worked for me the first time, and when I fell off the wagon once and gained 14 pounds.  I need something to help keep me on track, it's so hard to fall off the wagon.  Like an alcoholic, I am a food-oholic, it's my addiction.  Right now I find myself wanting to eat because I am bouncing off the walls.  It should do the trick, but wow did I forget how hungry I am the first couple days when I am eating portions I am supposed to eat.
I went back because after such a successful couple of weeks I knew houw easy it would be to just eat pizza again, and I don't have time to be yo-yoing back and forth.  I want to be fit and healthy for my kids!!

Other than that, I guess I'll be working this week. LOL.  Oh well, I'm pretty much down to Tuesday thru Thursday these days, and I get to wear jeans the rest of my weeks until my leave.  Getting to be casual attire works perfect for me should we get the call while at work.  The last thing I want is to drive to the hospital in dress clothes! :)

Until later, Brave Heart!!

Monday, June 13, 2011

32 Weeks and 2 Days (almost 3)

Well we had our weekly appointment, and we have dilated now to 3cm.  We're also thinning out, but I don't really get that, but I know it has to happen. :)
The minute I saw our surro today I knew things were gonna change, she has dropped.  The belly is not high any longer, she's carrying them low now.  And sure enough, she is.
Both babies are still head down, our OB says they won't change now, he'd be extremely surprised if they did.  Little man W has his head right down in the pelvis now, I'm pretty sure he's just about ready to go.
Everything looks good, even with the 3cm, our OB is not going to put our surro in the hospital, he says she can do this at home, and if she needs to call then call right away.  He said if they are ready to come, then come that will, he's not going to try and stop them.  We're hoping for 2 more weeks!  We all just want 2 more weeks.

We're doing well, I came right home and packed W&G's hospital bag.  We had it started but got their 1st picture outfits so those needed a wash, and pack.  Otherwise, they are done!  I also boiled all the nuks, just in case we need a few right away. (I am sure the hospital will also be having a supply)
Brian and I began packing our bags as well, so those will be in the car tonight!  One never knows I suppose, W&G have a mind of their own now.

It's an exciting time, and a scary one.  I keep telling myself our surro was dilated to 2 for 4 weeks, so we may be at 3 now for 2 weeks, or more.  Our OB said he'd see us Monday, so I think he's pretty sure we'll hold out too.

I guess that's all for the moment.  I'm starving, time for dinner. (Oh and I have lost 6 pounds too, so I am on the right track.  These appointments and changes have me extra motivated!)

Until next time, Brave Heart!

Tuesday, June 7, 2011

So many updates......

Greetings to all my followers (all faithful 5 of you) :)

Well I will begin my new post by saying my sister did an AMAZING job on the shower Saturday.  We had such a great time, and so many family members and friends from out of town came in for our big day.  The food was amazing, the decorations so cute, and the gifts APPRECIATED more than anyone could know. 
We had a beautiful day for the shower, which lent itself to being oustide.  80 degrees, a nice breeze and not a cloud in the sky.  It was perfect, the perfect gift from the Lord on that day.

My sister had a fun game for people to play, and that was how we announced the names of the Twins to everyone.  Everyone approved, of course even if they didn't they pretended too.  Of course, my family would probably have told me if they did not approve. :)

After unpacking and settling back in at home we were completely beat.  We looked everything over, reflected on the day, and talked about how excited we were for our family to begin!

Yesterday we had our weekly appointment, Week 31, and everything looked great with W&G.  They measure 4lbs 1oz and 4lbs 0oz.  W had the hicupps so we got to see that on ultrasound, and then the tech pointed out that W was also practicing his breathing.  I take that as a good sign.  Both are head down and our OB says more than likely that's how they're going to stay now.  There isn't much room left in there.  We aren't going to argue that point, and as of right now we're on for a vaginal delivery.  Much to the relief of our surrogate.  That has been her hope all along.
Her cerviz remains dilated to 1.5cm, and hasn't changed in a little over 3 weeks, so we continue to hope that stays as it is, for a few more weeks at least.  Our OB says if we get to July 11th (36 Weeks) and he is convinced all looks darn near perfect we'll induce around that date.  Sometime that week.  And both babies are measuring 32 weeks as of yesterday, so a week ahead of schedule.  So, we actually all kind of expect them to come on their own before July 11th, but  if not all the better.  The longer they stay in there the less likely we are to have to spend any time in the NICU.  A hope we all share!

We proceeded to the Hospital for our tour and orientation.  It was a great visit (even though our surro and I had been there already for the kidney stones, but Brian got to see everything) They have surrogates there all the time, so we are not unique, which is good because we got a lot of good information.  We for sure get our own room and the babies will be staying with us.  Our journey as parents begins the moment they are born and placed skin to skin on our chests!  That will be an amazing moment!
We left in great spirits, and had dinner with our surro and her two sons.  Then Brian and I headed on our 90 minute drive home, talking about the great day we had.  We're very optimistic, and very excited.  Our hospital bags, and W&G's have been started.  We know it won't be long now, and this week is already flying by.  Saturday marks 32 weeks! We are doing our last minute things, and are making a big push to complete the last project we wanted to get done before they get here this weekend.  The time draws so near.  It is almost surreal to me.

I know that before long our every day simplicities will change to complexity.  No more quick runs to Target, or to grab dinner.  No more lounging around watching TV.  But I have to tell you from the bottom of my heart, I HAVE NEVER BEEN MORE EXCITED  THAN I AM RIGHT NOW!!  I long to be a parent, to be a father, a role model for my two little miracles.  This has been a dream for so long, and sometimes I think I am actually dreaming, but it is real.  W&G are on their way, and I cannot thank God enough!

These final weeks will crawl by, but we have much to do week in and week out.  That will help pass the time, and before we know it W&G will be here, and my life will be enriched and blessed like it never has before.  To hold them for the first time and know they are ours will be unlike any other feeling I have ever experienced.  I'm going to be the proudest papa that ever lived!!!

Peace, and brave heart!

Wednesday, June 1, 2011

30 Week 4 day appointment update & more....

Well we had our 30 week and 4 days appointment today, which is an appointment because we have been dilated to 1.5cm since week 28.  This was another great appointment, cervix remains at 1.5cm and everything else is looking just great.  Blood pressure and weight are on target and our surro is in good spirits. 
Our appointment was actually the fastest one ever, our OB was on time and not off delivering babies.  We got right in, had some chat about the delivery and checked, released, see ya on Monday.  It was great.

We went to Perkins for some pie and lemonade, and to visit, we sat and chatted for a couple hours and then Brian and I headed home to get a run in.  I'm totally committed to losing 10 pounds in 5 weeks, and I am so determined!  I have done a great job since Sunday, with a run 2 nights, and walks all the others.  I am eating fruits and veggies, and drinking a ton of water.  Which I always do, water is actually my beverage of choice, but I am making sure I am getting the right amount.  I've gone cold turkey and cut our soda, diet and regular, and will begin turning off the daily Red Bull.  I've started scaling it back to the 8 ounce, instead of the 12.  It's a beginning.  I'm going to shed these 10 by July 4th!  I'll keep you posted.

My sister has everything under control for the shower on Saturday, and we're really excited to see some family and friends we haven't seen in awhile.  People are coming in from all over, and we are thrilled they are coming.  Our surro is hoping to get there, but we will understand if she can't, being on the modified bedrest, and it's just over an hour.  No biggie, but she would have to come alone.  Her fiance is going with her son to a race (son is racing) and her daughter is going to be gone.  We told her to bring a friend if she wanted too, so hopefully it will all work out.  The great news: THE SUN IS SUPPOSED TO BE SHINING!!! 

Well, other than that, just keeping the faith and holding a brave heart.  Monday's appointment is preceeded by an ultra sound and we are all really excited to see how much W&G weigh! W was 3.2lbs last time and G was 2.9 @ 28 weeks.  So, we are hoping they are both close to 4.  And then we have our Hospital tour as well, at 4:30.  A busy day, and we'll close with a nice dinner.

Perhaps until then, maybe a post after the shower,
Brave Heart!

Saturday, May 28, 2011

Hello Week 30!!!

Greeting to everyone, and sorry I haven't had a post recently.  I've been super busy and waiting for some real milestone before commenting any further than last time.  Today marks week 30 of our twin pregnancy, and I know we are all very excited.  We've been on modified bedrest for two weeks now, but everything seems to be alright for the moment.  Our surro is off to their cabin, since last Thursday, for some much needed, and well deserved, R&R! 

It's a good feeling to know we have made it to week 30, and that time is moving right along.  The holiday weekend, and a mid week appointment should help this coming week pass quickly, and with some luck we won't be dilated any further than where we were.

Next Saturday my sister and mom are throwing us a big family and friends shower.  That should be a lot of fun and a good way to celebrate hitting week 31.  But I won't get too far ahead of myself counting those weeks just yet.

I have spent the last two days taking tags off baby clothes and washing them up.  We have been shopping for clothes for over a year, so we do have a full closet for W&G!  I have also discovered that really cute baby scent that all babies seem to have, it's the Dreft!  Our laundry room smells like new baby, and I LOVE it!  Now if there were just two babies to go along with that scent! (But I am not rushing that moment, they need to stay in there for a bit longer)

I am doing well with my weight, monitoring it, and trying to take it too, one day at a time.  I'll get there, and with some nice weather I may just get out and have a few runs!

Well, Brian is waiting for me right now.  Going to get a counter top for our new bar in the basement.  Just one more project to get complete before W&G get here!!

until next time, Brave Heart!

Monday, May 23, 2011

Appointment Update

Well we had the first of our now weekly appointments, and everything remains as it was last Monday!  We were very thankful to hear that, and that we would not be heading right to the hospital.  The OB is convinced that if we do exactly as we did this week we'll have no problems making it to 35 weeks.  He's so optimistic! LOL.  We all breathed a sigh of relief, and proceed on with the rest of our day.

As of today we have 19 days (counting today) until we reach week 32.  Which is, as I have mentioned, our first milestone.  I have great confidence we'll make it, and great faith in the Lord.  There is a calm over me, especially right now after the appointment.  I'm just gonna go with that.

I actually did get an entire chapter written last Friday in my book, which felt like such a great accomplishment.  I was very proud, although now I feel so obligated to finish it.  I have 10 chapters left to go, I am not sure I have that in me before W&G arrive.  However, I was fine before because it was the middle chapter, half way through, and I ended that chapter with a mid book cliffhanger if you will.  I had always been fine knowing it was a good place to come to an end for awhile if necessary.  Now, I have moved passed it, and feel the need for it to have an ending.  Do I have 10 chapters in me before 4th of July?  I'll keep you posted.

Brian and I worked inside all weekend, due to the nasty weather, but we did get some indoor projects complete.  We got the cabinets stained for the bar and the top cabinets even hung.  Brian tiled the floor, and we got W&G's room all cleaned up after Babies Shower #1.  And I actuallu exercised and counted my points.  Yes, I am a lifetime member of Weight Watchers, although you wouldn't know it right now! LOL.  I have fallen off the wagon, but I am three days strong now, and I looked at pictures from a couple years ago this morning, I want to be 155lbs again!  I can so do this can't I?  I mean that's only 15 pounds.  Well, I logged into WW today and co unted points, and all day I have been focused on those pictures.  And I so wanted to stop at McDonalds on the drive home from the appointment, but I did not.  I stopped at got fruits and vegetables for the week, and I am so gonna do this!!

Well, that's all for the moment.  One day at a time, Saturday we hit week 30.  I look forward to that milestone as well!!  Thanks for reading,

Brave Heart, until next time,

Friday, May 20, 2011

Another day (22 to go until Milestone #1)

So I debated to post last night late or first thing today, I am so superstitious that I felt I couldn't post about day 23 until it were actually over.  (and I can't stay up past 10pm)

So we made it through Day 23 (to go) to our first milestone on bedrest of Week 32.  It has been a good week for our surro on her first few days and she is keeping herself busy while sitting or laying down, so that's good, and she's listening to her body.  She wants to keep the babies in as long as possible as well, and has a great support system around her.  Her fiance works nights so her mom and his mom have been coming over every night to be with her and her three kids.  That's a great support system.  She's doing what the OB said because we both know that he'll put her in the hospital on Monday if anything has changed at all.

I'm doing alright knowing she's resting and off her feet, and also knowing this has happened with all three of her kids, but it wasn't as significant then because it was a single baby, and she was never working at this point.  So, we figure par for the course at this point, just take it easy.

We've all joked (O, her fiance J, my partner Brian and I) that of all four of us this was the worst person to happen to.  She and Brian are so much alike, move, move, move, and that I should have been the one on bedrest.  I could live a lifetime sitting and watching my favorite TV shows.  I would have pulled out my 14 seasons of Dallas and started the marathon!)

Of course she called me yesterday and told me that her boobs were full, maybe TMI, but we share everything with one another.  We discussed starting to pump to relieve the pain (we did not) but we called the hospital and asked about pumps and they quickly told us NOT TO DO THAT!  Unless we wanted to be having the babies that afternoon.  We quickly changed our plans.  Too bad though we would have had a great supply going.

So, that was the day, nothing significant.  I think everyone's in good spirits, and just taking it one day at a time.  We have our milestones all mapped out, and an appointment on Monday afternoon.  Hopefully we'll be in the same place we were last Monday.  One can pray, right?

I'm going to try and go with the good and attempt to avoid eating out of habit, nervousness and stress.  I really need to lose some pounds here before W&G are born.  I would never forgive myself if I was not at my goal weight in their baby pictures.  I can do it, I just need to follow the Lord through this, and allow him to guide me.  W&G are doing fantastic, and we got the steroid shot (Which I think maybe did the boob thingy) and W weighs 3lbs2oz which I think is pretty good for 28 weeks.  I wish his sister G could get there, but she's close, and maybe she will be soon.  I love my little babies more than anything in this whole world, they are my life, and they always will be.  There's nothing I won't do for them, which is why I need to get in shape so I can make sure I am here for them in health.

Well, I suppose that's all for now.  Here's to a great Day 22, and that we get to our first milestone!

Thanks to my followers, and hello to any new ones.  This I think will definitely make me feel better.  I really enjoy writing, so also need to use that outlet.  I have a book to finish writing if I can before W&G get here.  Maybe I'll jump back into that and write a chapter today.  I'll keep you posted!  It's funny this series I started actually began as a short story on my old MySpace blog.  It's a trilogy, and knowing book 3 may not happen for a few years seems to tell me to at least try and finish book 2!  Sounds like a good outlet to me!

Peace, and brave heart, until next time.

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

Testing things out

So I have never had a blog before, at least not since back in the days of MySpace, where I used to blog all the time.  Wow, that does seem  like a lifetime ago now.

Anyway, I thought as so many people have blogs I would start one as well, maybe it will be a great place for me to type out my emotions as to everything going on with our journey to being parents.  Well, at least my personal journey, I wouldn't wish to speak on behalf of anyone else and theit feelings.  I would only be guessing.

As many people already know we are currently 28 weeks and 4 days pregnant with Twins, and this week we have been put on restriction because the cervix of our surro is open the size of the OB's finger tip.  Yikes!  Of course I am freaking out and scared, but I am also trying to look on the bright side of things.  That mainly being that the twins are doing really well at this point, and we didn't get put on hospital bedrest.  Which has to be a good sign, I hope.

I won't go on too much right now as I did already post this on the forum site, but I will update this as the days and weeks go by.  For now we are on a countdown to 32 weeks, which is 24 days from today.  That's our first goal, our first milestone.  We'll set new ones after that, our long range goal being July 4th!

I know our surro is really strong, so I need to find my strength so I can be ready for everything which lies ahead.

Brave Heart!